and i don't really know why i hate it.. ok so deep down i do, but i don't really wanna deal with that stuff right now...
mainly:
- it seems like everyone has their live's planned out, and are leaving me all alone to figure it out.
- guys are insane... and trying to figure them out and understand them, is futile to say the least... i'm just so sick of putting myself out there. and getting nothing in return.
- I don't have anyone to talk to.. about anything.. everyone's so busy living their own lives, and going places that they dont have time for me.
- i am so unmotivated to get active and get in shape for basketball season, that it's actually kinda depressing.
- School is so hard!! and i can't concentrate in any of my classes, at all.. i'm begining to think that i have ADD or something.
- the next two years are gonna be full of so many changes for me.. and i dont want any of them to happen.. why do people have to grow up and move away, why can't everything stay the same?
- i hate how much self-esteem i don't have.. and how shy i am around even my closest friends! why can't i just speak my mind!?
- but most of all, i hate how this post makes me sound like such a drama queen.
3 comments:
Don't worry I feel the exact same way with the majority of those statements. Sorry I'm to busy to talk. But you're smart and you'll figure it out. I remember having moments like you're having in high school and I know this isn't any consolation but they're much easier to deal with then the moments after high school. Anyways just play it cool and persist. Feel free to talk to me on MSN this weekend when I'm taking a study break.
I have felt most, if not all of those things. I still have no idea what I am doing or going to do, but it is fun just taking stuff that I like and becoming educated at least haha. It took me till grade twelve to become happy with myself and to find myself and my true friends and eventually you will to, might be soon and might not be till your 50 (lets hope not) but once you do you will realize that everything is ok and you can just be happy. Maybe see you at the social on saturday?? I was at your house this past saturday but you were working, anyways see you sometime!
don't let things like school stress you out. just do ur best, it gets better. and don't be afraid to speak your mind in front of your friends, eithor they will respect your opinions or they won't and if they don't who cares. In two years u'll be in collage/university and u'll have new friends who will
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