so i'm sitting there (ok i was actually taking a bubble bath. but shhhh :P)
and i realized something.
i cant make him like me.
now if you know me, you know what i'm talking about.. and it seems like a really simple fact.. but i just.. wasnt aware of it before.
Just because i like him, doesn't mean he is ever going to feel the same way..
i need to pick myself up, and move on.
but the sucky thing is that i'm not sure i can.. i feel the need to tell him. make him aware of this fact. however, i'm positive it would wreck the friendship we have..or had..
this whole thing is silly and complicated, and i must head for bed.
time to finish up an ela exam in 12 hours.
wish me luck
*dont think. just do*
1 comment:
As much as we love to have control in our lives....we don't. It bugs the crap out of me, and I know that it bugs you too.
I've come upon that realization myself..that i can't make her like me anymore.
It's a weird moment. You feel happy...because it's sort of like seeing the light at the end of the tunnel...even if it's just a speck, it's still there. But at the same time...the crap is still being scared out of you for so many reasons. You're leaving the comfort zone. We're leaving the comfort zone.
There's still a lot of ups and downs after this, and you'll probably swoop back down to the state that you have been before...but try to remember that there's still that light.
Now that you've realized this fact Alli, it can never leave you. It can be buried yes. But it will be with you forever now.
*don't think. just do*
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