what to say.....
i feel the need to write..
not just random babble...
but something meaningful and thought provoking..
or at least what is really on my mind. :)
maybe i'll try again in a couple hours........
**kay... Later.. Lets See What Happens**
i feel so sure of what i want to do next year.. but so scared it wont happen..
and worried that its a bad decision....
like.. that it wont take me anywhere and i'll have wasted two years of my life.. Or that i'll fail horribly... cuz i'm going into a career that has a lot to do with customer service and dealing with people.. and i'm not sure if i can do that......
thats why some days i wish i could just cook as a career.. but that scares me even more lol... i think the schools would be insane.... especially cuz i'm a girl.. i think its a tough career to really excel at.......
off on a completly different tangent.. kinda. lol
but have you ever wanted to do something or... yea.. but cant because you dont know/ or are worried how people would react.. kay that sounds gay...
....but.. like... judgement! thats it! i hate being judged.. but i hate doing as i'm told lol.. so i kinda fight against the flow.. even though i'm flinching the entire time....
i need a backbone.... no...... a thicker skin? so i dont care what people think about me.. yea. i think thats it...
and yea... this wasnt the post i thought it would be...
was feeling really poetic tonight.
..but you cant force that. lol
man, do i ever want some cake right now :P
*dont think. just do**
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So I thought about becoming a chef, cooking as a career. But:
-Culinary school is absolutly frightning (like black box challanges!yikes!)
-I have now worked in a kitchen, and if the EH has taught me anything its that I never want to work in a kitchen like that again. Seriously, its not just the rediculous hours and non-passion for food its the atmoshspere and life style. It has also shown me that I don't have the passion or visionary dreams to succeed in that kind of business.
-I don't do mornings. Which will basically be a challange in the world of baking too but whatever, I'll deal.
On the other hand:
-What if I can't do pastry? Seriously! What if I can kinda see a vision for a cake but don't have the skill to make it real?
-What if I cant do it? What if I can't run my own business? What if I fail?
See buddy, too many what ifs.
But you know what? There is a plan for you, and everything will work out.
Be Brave.
Watch for the signs.
Oh, and always remember "The minute you send a dish you are 100% happy with you might as well go home. Game over."
i think you meant arent 100% happy with....
but i know what you mean..
thanks buddy...
and yea thats what i've been telling mom about moving us to PEI.. if its meant to be, it will happen.
:)
You two make me smile. :)
lol yeah. that too.
i was tired and rushed when i wrote that because i typed it once but only hit preview, not publish. i was mad
so? you cant publish it after you preview? weird....
and thanks jo.
no you can publish. but i thought that i hat hit publish, and then i closed the window
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