a whelming sense of anxiousness.
thats one of my many emotions today.
along with absolute exhaustion (i've been staying up waay to late, and getting up ridiculously early).
this whole, not eating junk food crap is hard, yo.
i have to plan what i'm going to eat, and really think, like, make concious choices about what i'm actually eating. Cuz its so easy to start nibbling on some fries, at work.. i need a different job lol. where i'm not surrounded by food.
i'm doing really good though. I haven't drank coke or anything in like, a week and a half. and basically the only thing i've eaten that i consider "junk" is baking. like SERIOUSLY! give up cake and sweets?! i dont think so!
the thing i miss the most? pizza! and chicken wings! oh man. i was literally living off of both of those for the past few months..........
man.. i cant even think today. like, my brain has decided to take a holiday. which is quite sad cuz i feel as though i have something important to say. if only i could get the words out...
though that could also be, because some of my thoughts i dont want the whole world to be able to read, but i really want to write them down..... and have someone read them.. you know? i guess that comes back to my fear of being judged for what i do or say...
so adri handed in her two weeks on sat. i'm kinda sad that she wont be there anymore, but i dont blame her. (well actually i do.... lol) She needs out, and to move on. so i'm happy for her in that sense. but it just wont be the same anymore.
**dont think. just do**
1 comment:
Wow...I wouldn't consider wings and pizza as junk food! You realize how lost I'd be if I was trying to do that? I don't think I would be eating to be honest. Keep it up though. When you complete this, I'll be quite amazed with it.
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