Have you ever been so hurt, so angry, so frustrated, that you push everything away and retreat into a state of feelingless.
To hide from the pain,
So that you don't start crying in front of nearly complete strangers. again. and again.
I honestly cannot remember the last time i've felt like this. Had to resort to feeling nothing, in attempt to get away from the pain.
Am i being excessive? taking this too far?
I dont know. I dont think so.
I feel... betrayed. I've lost a friend, because they were too stubborn to admit their mistake, and i'm too hurt (ok, and stubborn) to forgive them anyways.
I just so mad at them. So mad i start shaking if I think about it.
"How could you act like this?" I wonder.
"Why didnt you just talk to me, explain, and apologize?"
and thats probably what is frustrating me the most.
I will never get an apology from them.
Just own up to your actions, dickwad.
and stop trying to make me feel guilty.
i didnt do anything.
right?
what should i apologize for? assuming you were my friend? believing that you could be responsible for something of mine? Trying to find out what was going on, even when no one could/would tell me anything?
Well I'm Sorry.
Sorry that things had to end this way.
but we've both made our choices.
Live With It
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