Ouch, that hurt

I'll admit it.

I'm a selfish person.

I like things my way. done how I like it.
and its exactly like that in relationships too.

but i hate planning things.. does that make sense?

But anyways..

He started talking to me today.
and all I could think was "No! this isn't right. you're not supposed to be happy, over me. That's how I'm supposed to be."
Why do I feel like this, why can't we just be friends?

This is what I wanted isn't it?
Then why does it feel like my heart is tearing apart whenever we talk?

How can two people who had such a connection move backwards into the friendship stage again? I don't think you can...