So that's how i've been feeling lately. (up there ^^, if you're blonde and don't know what i'm talking about).
and i don't know why. Like my life's been goin pretty good these days, but for some reason i can be surrounded by a group of people and be all like, "you guys don't even know me! what am i doing here?" and that group of people are some of my "closest" friends!! I can sit there and go through the right actions, and say all the right things but inside i'm saying completely different, and it wants to come out, but it doesn't know how!
I just dont know how to express myself. I'm afraid of saying something "wrong" and people getting the wrong idea of me. or saying something that pushes people away from me...
Like don't get me wrong, i've got an awesome boyfriend, super cool friends, and this break from school was awesome, but i can't help but feel like there's something wrong..... maybe it's just that i can't believe how incredible my life is right now, cuz i'm used to atleast one part of it falling apart... so maybe i'm just protecting myself from a hurt? but in the end, i'm prolly going to be my own biggest enemy...
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I think you should express yourself the way you feel is right, do whatever you think you need to do to feel "right" (even if it does mean loosing a friend, or getting grounded, or whatever) you have to try it, and if you don't you will probably be left there wondering "what if?" and besides, if those people are your real friends, they wont leave you or be mad at you for the decisions you make, they will accept you for who you are
who was that? cuz i normally dont respond to anonymous commentors, but that was pretty good advice!!
thanks!
I'll tell you who I am in real life or on MSN or something, I just didn't want other people reading that and thinking that I was giving bad advice or something, and I think you should totally take my advice, cause I've had to learn the hard way (loosing friends, getting grounded) but I think I've finally found where I belong and who my real friends are
ok... if your online right now. talk to me! lol
ok, so other than this anonymous person (who better tell me who there are! lol. btw do i like, know you, know you?), anyone else have any advice?
yeah, you do "know me, know me"
and it's really hard to give advice on these blogs under my real name, I know everyone is shutting all those "anonymous" people down, but mostly because they say bad things, but I think that if I had put my name I would have just been critisized or shut down for what I say, because (and it's the harsh truth) I don't actually think I have that many friends left at this school that like me for me, and don't talk about me behind my back, and aren't mad at me for anything
hmm yea i feel for you...
wow this persons deep lol i like it...do i know you?..if not i would like to know you! lol
deep, I never thought I (of all people) would be thought of like that, but yeah, Katryn you do know me!
P.S. is it just me or does it seems like it it so much easier to give advice when no one knows who you are......
i think so, cuz then you can't be judged for what you
say
i agree with you anonymous! alot.. its always easier if noone knows who you are.
PARTY AT MY HOUSE FOR YOUR 16TH BIRTHDAY!! WOOT! EFFIN EH!! lol
lol what michele?
I mean.. no there is no party, what am I talking about *virtual slap on the forehead*
k yea... am i the only one confused?!?
yupp you are alli .. haha .. "yes because i know more than 1 val from this school" ohhhh dear alli haha
haha val too funny
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