i honestly have no idea if anyone is even reading this little project of mine, but if you are(!) then i ask you this:
have you ever read my posts from last january/February??!
oh man, were they something!
the thoughts, the emotions, that were poured into every post!
i miss that.
that creative energy.
those insightful posts into the mind of a 17 year old girl.
i wish i could write like that now,
but those feelings, that person, are gone.
and i'm really not sure how to get them back.
or maybe i should just move on.
let my writing go somewhere else. be something else.
something bigger?
something better?
idk, but i feel like my feelings are more personal now.
i didnt used to be afraid of speaking what was on my mind, on my heart.
but now that my emotions seem so real,
so intense.
so big.
i'm not sure how much of them i want to be sharing with anyone who has access to the internet...
so now i have to decide.
share nothing about my personal life,
or share it all..
'cuz in the middle doesn't seem to be able to work..
4 comments:
I faithfully read your blog, and usually try to comment though sometimes I have nothing to say.
But yeah... you should go all out. I'd love to hear what's on Allison's heart.
thanks dearie.
missyou
:)
You could always make a new private blog and only allow access to people who you wish to see it.
Not that I have one of those things....*shifty eyes*
:)
I am a new reader but I think it is good to be honest on a blog, that is what blogs are for! I think you are a lovely person and now that you recognize the changes you can work on making the things that you want better. Hope you enjoy today!
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